I struggle to accomplish anything.
No victories for me. I work, I clean up, I plan and ponder and think and plan so more… but rarely do.
Most days I feel ineffectual and incompetent. Lazy and tired and exhausted.
I’ve long imagined myself bobbing in the ocean, with just my nose above the water.
Funny how other see me as somewhat successful, or at least functional.
I see a life full of intentions
but without any completions
and sometimes not even effort
im just tired